Self delusion is my optimism

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Happy Birthday to my mom!

I'm bad at telling people how much they mean to me,especially if they're my kin,so i'm gonna write here that i love you mom.I really do,it takes a lot to raise a kid like me,and it takes more raising the grown up me.

Thank you for all the breakfasts you buy for me on weekends,so i can have a decent breakfast when i sleep in.
Thank you for all the times you'd check my wallet in the morning before you go off to work to be sure i'm not dead broke,and if i were you'd always stuff in some money.
Thank you for all the care and concern,something i'd always need.
Thank you for being proud to have me.
Thank you for being my mom..

Just woke up 2 hours ago,and i'm feeling like shit.And waking up made me realise how much i miss my bed.Slept over at shang's house cause when we left the bbq,it was arnd 230am,and we took a long night walk,which was no easy feat.Considering having to carry ben's pots of curry and a huge cooler box.Shang being the gracious host,provided a mattress,and two sleeping bags for the 4 of us.Guo wei merely stoned in a meditation position cause he refused to sleep.And i got the sleeping bag,with a small rugby ball for a pillow.

Yesterday was great,i think.Well not that my opinion really matters here,but it was more of a gathering of friends and reunion.Glad to see the ex-classmates,and my ever so handsome math tuition teacher.(Whom still doesn't have a kid.And we just kept rubbing it in all night.Tongkat ali,viagra,etc.) For the first time in my life,i saw one of my friends,being emo and depressed.And him being depressed is no joking matter,well at least for me,he becomes half gay,and tends to take me for a punching bag gay partner.I still get a goosebumps imagining him doing it again,the hugging and leaning on my chest!ARGH!And he takes it out on me by thumping my chest like its some game machine.

Well i'm bad at comforting people i realise,i'm kinda at a loss for words.Words that make people feel better,he says i'm straight,and well i guess i am.Being pragmatic is the only way you don't get hurt as deep.And i realised,putting two emo guys together isn't really good,so i cheered up a little!

Gazing at the stars with the sea breeze caressing your cheeks gently is a really nice sensation.It kinda makes you feel all relaxed,and well...alive.As you take a closer look,you'd realise the up there,stars are dotted everywhere.But then you'd only see one brightest star,one that's special to you.The sea waves lapping onto shore,soothes the soul somehow,and everything is just so calm.

Saw 4 kids running about,and they kinda hung around with our group.Apparently their mom was at the nearby pub,chatting with some guy and they're left all alone to play.To them they say,it's already something mundane,and i kinda wondered what kind of a mother do they have.Makes me think back to the times,when i was their age,and my parents never let me outta their sight.Always so protective and concerned bout my whereabouts,and at that time being a kid,i'd always feel irritated and i hated that kind of attention.Now i'm just happy i've got great parents.


`You are that brightest star that shines in the sky

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